We all have that boy; he's the boy we try to pretend we aren't looking for as we make our way to class. He's the boy that we lie about and claim not to care about anymore. He's the boy that gives you the cliché butterflies, complete with the weakness in the knees. He's the boy we're thinking about as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will remember him forever- he's not the one for us, but he'll always be somewhere in our hearts.
I don't want to be so skinny that I look ill . I don't want to be so frail that people are afraid they will crush me when they hug me . I don't want my hip bones to poke out extremely far , and I don't want my knees to be bigger than my legs . What I want is to be thin , but healthy . To be able to get a piggy back ride , to be able to sit on your lap without holding myself up , to be able to sit down and not have to put my pants over my belly . To be able to wear shorts again , to be able to wear tanks without feeling like my arms are the size of a thigh . I just want to be comfortable , and to love my body fully . That's all . And that's why I'm doing this . And that's why I'm not giving up for anything .
I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking.